Good People Should Not Die Young (ESPECIALLY)

Open Letter To The Entity Taking My Friends And Family From My Life:

Too young.

Too young.

Too young.

I am still sitting in the reality of losing one of the most kind, loving, friendly, funny and GOOD friend just days ago.

Collapsed at work.  Autopsy has not confirmed (to his family’s satisfaction) what exactly happened.

I’m sad to a point that I want to boil.  No, I’m not sad, I’m mad.  I’m pissed and angry and wish I could change what has happened.  I also feel helpless.

Today (or was it last night…life blurs when you have three camps every day and see the same 100+ people every day at different times of the day) I was jaw jacking with a person I have opened my deepest feelings to.  WHY is this happening?  I can barely handle losing so many people.  WHY!?  

I find myself staring out the window while my husband drives wondering WHAT IS THE POINT.  Why are we here wandering this earth?  What is the reason we drag ourselves through muck and pain? Why are there people that are total evil mother fluckers that should die but the GOOD ONES go first?

A lot of people have a faith in their lives.  That is not how I was raised and maybe it is why I feel so much ANGER with no one to point it at when someone good passes away.  

Take the asshole mother fluckers to the next place!!  


I believe that my friend Dave is still near me, near his family as a spirit floating around wishing he could change what has happened.  Things happened in perfect order with Dave.  He was a planner and do’er.  He ran 100 mile races AS A HOBBY.  His diet was healthy.  He gave to so many that needed.  He took care of more (and I’m sure we’ll find out who else and what else as the days roll by).

My dear friend Mary passed away way too young.  I wrote a post about her.  I think of her every single day and the stern advice she gave me.  It is partly why I feel so willing to get rid of everything I own to leap into our new life. 

My step-daughter Amanda passed away at 17 years old.  17.  It is unexplainable how this could possibly be OK.  It’s unfair and I will not change my mind.

My mom.  I NEED MY MOM!!!!!!!  Mom’s need to be around until their kids are old farts.  They need to experience the love and life their kids will work hard to give them.  They deserve it.  There is NO WAY anyone could change my mind on this.

I’m not going to continue.  

Just know:  I think it is completely UNFAIR and CRUEL to everyone to take the good people in my life.  

There are plenty of awful people that don’t care a hoot about anyone but themselves that should go to a new place.

Rest in PEACE Dave Liston.   June 15th, 2017.

I don’t know where you are but my wish is that you are in a good place where you are being cared for and doted on.  Where there are all of the dogs that have passed on.  Where there are plenty of trails for you to run on.  Where there are a few spreadsheets too (because I think you actually loved working and doing what you did because you were damn good at it).
Rest In PEACE Katie Jenks.  July 5th, 2017. 

Published by Sarita Shoemaker

I love my kids, husband, pets, the Earth and family. My Top 5 feelings: gratitude, honor, honesty, respect, encouragement. Pretty certain this is how most of us would answer the prompt "About Me". Enough about About You?

3 thoughts on “Good People Should Not Die Young (ESPECIALLY)

  1. I’ve been told that anger is one of the steps in the grieving process however I’ve never really been able to grasp the concept that a process exists. I think we are all individuals who will experience loss differently and no question anger exists because of all the unanswered questions that comes with the finality of loss, I just don’t know that I would refer to it as a process. Time is the only real way to move forward with life after a significant loss. Time gives us an opportunity to see blessings that can come from tragedy. It’s too soon to even think about blessings with the tragedies that are upon us. We get to be sad, angry, confused and broken up over the loss of those good people who should never have been removed from our lives. We can wait for the day when enough time has past that hope replaces anger, sadness and grief. Thank you for sharing such a deep, raw letter of your feelings. It helps me to know that I am normal in feeling what I do about the losses of late.
    Love you Sarita!!!!


    1. Thank you Maggie. I agree with you. The “process” has to be different from one person to the next. Up to now I have stacked up a lot of loss of people I love. There are two sides to this for me. Before 2005 I had my own “process” of dealing with loss. I had to be tough and not let my feelings spill out. I kept myself guarded and cold. I wasn’t ALLOWED to show these feelings because it was frowned upon and I would have been considered unethical and dramatic. That was when I was a member of Scientology and since leaving I’ve slowly removed the walls around me and opened up how much I CAN LOVE someone not realizing there would be risks to losing them. It has been a little over a decade and now (2017) I can see that I am more raw emotionally! It’s wild to think I was never allowed to show my feelings – to suppress them. I’m on my 4th chapter of my book. I am realizing this behavior started when my mom joined Scientology in the 70’s. That means from 1976 to 2005 (when I met Randy and he helped me see it is ok to live my life as I want to live it) I practiced this very unhealthy way of managing my feelings. Hang on, I’m getting my calculator: 29 years. Crazy.


      1. It is always so hard to believe that you were a part of Scientology and yet you are one of the most honest, sincere, caring and loving people I know. The person I have known shows her emotions and is truly so beautiful inside and out because of that. You have a traveled a rough road and yet you came out on top in my book. Yes, Randy may have had a lot to do with it and yet I believe that it took inner strength to believe in yourself that you could. Keep writing, you have an amazing talent and I’m so excited and anxious to read your book!!!


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