Happy First Day Of Fall 2019

Kona’s morning walk was a jackpot of beauty!

I was reminded that TODAY is the big day: FALL IS HERE!

It is officially the FIRST DAY OF AUTUMN.  Starts September 23rd and goes until December 21st  this year (2019).

For the past two years we have lived in places where there are actual seasons and the planet differences are so obvious.  Utah and Colorado.

We still miss the beaches of SoCal (always will) but this change in our environment has been magical.  We have WEATHER and need to pay close attention to what the meteorologists report.

It is much chillier in the morning here in Colorado and the afternoons are in the 70’s. There is a breeze happening off and on. I wear a sweater in the morning and shorts in the afternoon.  We live at 7,123′ elevation and this means we get the cooler side of things (as well s the sun being extremely strong!)

With the changing seasons there are so many events and activities happening up and down the Front Range. 

Today’s morning walk started off with brilliant pink and orange skies. We live where there are a lot of trees and I’ve had to hike to an open viewing space to watch the sunrises which is good for me and Kona.

I got to that spot to have the gift of this sunrise!

Within minutes…
Wait…what!!?? My stomach lurched as we rounded the corner.
THIS IS WHAT I LOVE ABOUT OUR PLANET! What a gift.

Just an update on Zoey: she is doing better. We went to visit Beth in Parker this weekend and she was her old self again: bouncy and happy to join us all on a walk. The baby carrier has helped as well as the change in her food. I am baking chicken, rice, sweet potatoes, lentil and quiona. Shredding carrots, beets and green beans. She’s basically living at the Bellagio, including belly massages.

Manitou Art Center REBIRTH Oil by Teri Connolley $250
I love seeing unique paintings, art creatives and masterpieces by local artists.

Randy and I went on a date to the Manitou Art Center (the MAC) where one of his co-worker’s wives was having her grand opening of her art. Her name is K8e Orr. You have to say it Katie. She OWNS that and even had her named changed to that.

The MAC is a place that all forms of creativity are taught and displayed. You pay a monthly membership and have access to all of it. They have a 3D printer, pottery, quilting, looms, carpentry, machine shop…it was overwhelming.

From their website, “Music, theatre, pottery, printmaking, and other loud, slightly dangerous and intensely messy events happen here daily. Locals and tourists alike flock to our galleries, studios, exhibition space, classrooms and delicious café. “

Someone made this! I didn’t see the card with the artists information or price.

I hope everyone has a great Monday and great week.

My First Podcast

When you work over 5,000 hours in one year what would you expect your pay to be? Mine was $1202.94. Hear what I did to earn $4.34 an hour.

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Things are coming together with my book, podcast and Patreon site.

I hope you take a minute to listen to my latest podcast entitled 1986.

The Sea Org Living Space, Hollywood California

My mom and brother. He was sent to the Cadet Org/ATA everyday all day while she worked to clear the planet. And lived in a dorm…this is so disturbing to me.

This is a photo of my mother when she lived in the Hollywood at the scientology dorms there. There is a giant “Scientology” sign down the front of the building. I think it was called the HGB? Hollywood Guarantee Building.

The next photo is where my brother slept in this dorm.

He was at the Cadet Org/Apollo Training Academy all day and night while she worked.

This post is a test to see if I can get it under my PRIVATE PATREON PAGE.

http://www.Patreon.com/Sarita88

In a sleeping bag under the bunks. Nice. Jerks!!

Next is a picture of my brother so you can see how old he was when he was taken to the ATA/Cadet Org every day. Seriously.

They are sitting in Sea Org dining near Lebanon Hall. That is Thom or Tom Krapp in the photo. Is he still around? In?

Life Changing Journal

Trying to lose weight, handle depression, exercise more? This is a page of our journal that successfully helped close to 1,000 people do it.

Here ya go.

I wrote this journal for our boot camp program and it helped people improve their health and nutrition.

Keeping track of when and what you put into your body is tough to do on your own.

This page is compliments of Randy and I for you to use if you want.

Legal notice: no part of this may be copied or reproduced without our express permission. This is in no way a guarantee to a healthier life or better quality of life. It is for personal use only.

If you need or want the entire journal (6-weeks of journal pages as well as guidance, meal ideas, inspiration, graphing and more) we ask that you check out my Patreon page and help us there.

Your Legacy?

For 3 decades I learned how to NOT feel or express certain emotions because they were bad and meant I was a bad person. Like love, compassion, grief, sadness, failure, anger…now I am feeling them and it is hard to manage.

My Grandfather, Robert Vaughn MacCaughey (I never met him… unfortunately).

Grief, for me, makes me think deeper about life and purpose.

I also have the same question pretty much every single time: why?

Why are we here and what’s the point?

When so much sadness envelopes our mind it makes life feel like sludge. I cry a lot and it makes my head heavy mentally and physically. That’s new for me, by the way.

The first few decades of my life wandering this planet were so different than the last 5 or 10 years.

I was raised with philosophies that should be illegal! My once free and clear mind was bent, nailed, locked and forced into a mold of “correct thinking” that was (and I firmly believed it) supposed to make the world a better place and SAVE MANKIND.

What happened!?

Napoleon Hill points out in his book, “The Creator gave man complete control over but one thing, that the Creator must have intended that that was the most important thing in the world. How strange it is, my friends, that civilization has not included in its education and religious the importance of this marvelous gift from the Creator, a gift so powerful that it enables one to practically proclaim and carry out one’s own earthly destiny. That gift, need I remind you again, is the control that you have over your own mind.” -1

My mind (which I consider the part of me that does all of my ‘thinking’) was put into a cookie cutter mold for 30 years! After time I was unable to think any other way and it was scary and terrifying. I just didn’t know HOW to feel! I depended on a cult leader’s teachings to TELL ME HOW TO FEEL.

I believed it all and even began forcing it on my own kids.

That cult got 3 generations of my family tree!

Part of the cult explored your deepest thoughts, hopes and dreams. You openly and willingly shared this information to have it “judged”. If they were “wrong” then you were sent to fix that thinking – more brain washing to remove that critical thinking or dream that was NOT part of the cult leader’s master plan.

30 years. Dripping on me and telling me how to THINK PROPERLY.

Now, 2019, I can feel things I did not LET MYSELF FEEL. Like grief.

Maybe having 3 decades of it and not being allowed to FEEL grief have suddenly hit me like a tsunami and when I feel emotional I REALLY get pushed to the edge. I’m so delicate now and feel so much pain for OTHER PEOPLE and worry and concern that they are OK. I can’t sleep at night because of it. I wake up every 2 or 3 hours worried about things.

The day my cousin Bekah passed away, 5/23/19 at 5:23am, I was awake staring at the ceiling at 3:14am (I always pick up my phone to see what time it is HOPING it’s close to 6:00am). I knew Bekah was on her last days of life on earth and had spent hours crying all by myself at home while I cleaned, ironed, cooked, worked on our business…just so much crying and sadness and the feeling of UNFAIRNESS and INJUSTICE on someone that was so good.

In the darkness I focused on that original question: why are we here and what’s the point? I did it with a feeling of anger and hate just pushed out there in the universe not really directed toward anyone or anything. Maybe you get what I mean on that feeling?

I have lots of questions for Bekah.

I began making a list of all of the beautiful people I’ve known and beautiful creatures I’ve cared for myself or known personally that have passed away. It was depressing and way longer than i realized.

2016. Me and my little sister with Bekah on her FEEL MY BUCKEYES road bike ride up the California Coast. She shared some deep stories with me that changed my life.

Maybe one post I’ll just put it all out there for the world to see…

In the meantime, I realized one thing I could offer that I wish my cousin Bekah had, my mom, Amanda, my Grandpa William MacCaughey, my Grandma Mary Kay Xanders, my uncle David MacCaughey…what was their life story? What secrets did they go to the “next place” carrying? What questions did I have unanswered? I want to know!!!! I want details.

I care so much and I’m TOO LATE. I’M TOO LATE.

Have you ever considered putting your story into words?

I heard a fantastic radio show host last week put it perfectly. I’ll paraphrase it (I was driving at the time and had no way to document it without taking my hands off the wheel and we’d just had 2 feet of snow overnight so I was being super-careful!)

“If you want something to be remembered you have to write it down. Put it in PRINT. Videos and sound bytes are fun and entertaining but I don’t see people keeping this at their fingertips.”

A book or a diary or a memoir is a place to share your thoughts. It can be closed shut at any point and placed on a shelf for decades or a century or a day.

I realize more now than ever: you are a sincerely amazing person and you should write down your stories and your experiences. Your favorite things, like color or movies that influenced you and why. It’s an encyclopedia of YOU that would be the best legacy. It doesn’t have to be a perfect piece of work. What would you give to know more about your own parents, a best friend or family member that has passed?

What question would you ask them today? What confuses you about the history you DO know about them?

I have a million questions…

Would you like to have your story written?

I’ll help you.

-1 Success Habits Radio Program 1952 Paris Missouri, by Napoleon Hill Chapter 5 Applied Faith

Henry Ford’s Innovation Show

“Your daughter was on TV”
INFAMOUS MURDER HOUSE GOES UP FOR SALE
Oh gawd, which daughter…

Morgan visited Claire at her bouncy house.

Today I was minding my own business here at home with two dogs and a cat feverishly cleaning themselves and up pops a text from my friend Missy…

“We just saw your daughter on tv.”

Wait, what?

Oh ya, we got rid of TV/Cable just last week. Mostly because we rarely watch it and our TV set is a smart one, so we can potentially get the weather and news details we need through some app.

I rushed to the internet as I texted back, “which one and what channel?”

Almost instant reply: “Channel 2”

The Channel 2 News website loaded quickly… “INFAMOUS MURDER HOUSE GOES UP FOR SALE” was the headline.

Hmmm…which daughter would that include. Please let it be something else! I scanned fast… Morgan had been in LA so maybe she was part of some filming and Claire lives and works in Santa Barbara so maybe she was in on some fun thing at the house?

Luckily the next text arrived, “Henry Ford’s Innovation Nation”

DAMN!!!

Yeah baby!!!

Little Claire was part of a super cool segment about what she’s been working on for over 2 years at a company called NEXT Energy.

Claire.

One day, I hope, she will write the story of her childhood into adulthood. It is a page-turner filled with serious highs and lows.

So to see her where she is today is not a surprise for me, as her mom.

She was ALWAYS determined to get what she wanted. It was a delicate place to be because, well, I was pretty much the same way. She didn’t know how her behavior would be an almost perfect replication of mine. Even my mom would give me the “look” that indicated I deserved exactly what she was dishing out at the moment.

I don’t know how my mom survived raising me!

Claire is working on making the world a better place for everyone. Window panes that you can clearly see through, that generate energy! Every building in every town could generate power this way. Every home could generate energy beyond solar panels on the roof. It’s clean energy and our kid is part of it.

We are very proud of all of our kids and the path they have chosen to “ADULT”.

Both sides of the family have the funny-bone and it didn’t stop with Claire.
The Adults we get to call our children forever.

Claire’s Grandma Mary May and Miss Silvestro (Claire’s favorite teacher, 1st Grade) would be proud too. Does anyone know Miss Silvestro or where we can find her to stay in touch!? She was a 1st Grade Teacher at Mountain Avenue in La Crescenta California.

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